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Reign

2009-10-16T22:02:00.004+08:00

Reign

You,
Your voice.
It rips,
Rips me apart like the predator rips the prey.
Tearing its sinewy muscles from its bones;
Hanging strings of bloodied tendons.

You,
Your eyes.
That riveting glare of hate,
Hate like the ever-reaching arm of pestilence.
Plaguing its surroundings with a resplendent gleam --
The gleam of grime and dusty incandescence.

You,
Your very being.
Relishes in the desire of destruction,
Destruction like the raging war of the heavens.
Pouring forth the blood of the angels;
Smudging the iridescent snow of the fallen.

Your presence,
An abomination to mankind --
Raping the truth from the blind.
Who are you to seek for solace,
When you wreck the peace of the given?

Your unscrupulous ways and conniving thoughts,
Enter the minds of the beguiling innocent.
Not a single fleeting moment of miniscule observation,
Simply raid us, and raid our fear for a higher power;
Raid our sanctuaries like the beast and its forray.

Raid our minds of the willingness for Freedom.

Concern

2009-09-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

Concern

Deny my voice,
Lean towards your inner desires.
Take away all need;
Remove all thought.

Whine as the mirthless laughter descends,
Your leaking lies seep through my hands.
You live beneath the naive thoughts of crime,
Then expect the world to fine-tune your mind.

Honestly, your voice, while it
rings through my head,
Brings bouts of pure hate and utter resent.
Hath you no shame, hath you no heart?
To run past a fact so undeniably shown.

What wonderment fills me,
As I stare in your soul.
Such bottomless pits – such unlikely heart;
To have stirred such regret,
To have caused such emotion;

To have ceased to require the concern for fear.

Pause.

2009-01-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

Pause

Mass of crowds,
Endless chatter.
Flying insults,
Meaningless promises.
Screaming puppets,
Hurting abuse.
Shrill laughter,
Morning banter.
Hamster on a wheel,
Never-ending treadmill.
Falling sawdust,
Fleeting dreams.
Accomplished goals,
Unsatisfied earns.
Yearning trust,
Belittling behavior.
Raging concern,
Gushing river.
Imminent arrival,
Delayed intent.

Fall forward,
Lean back.
Never a miniscule silver of still.

Jargon

2008-06-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

Jargon

Let it all get to your head,
What of consequences?
Never once thought it through.
Influence, influence,
Spin a tale out of silk.
Regret, too late,
Make the world walk a rope.
Escape, impossible,
Flee the scene like a bird.

What of acquaintances and soul?
The world's reached an end,
Where death is but nigh.
Reach for your hand,
You'd find naught but trust,
Broken into pieces,
Uncountable and lost.

Pride and price,
Come once more together,
Where one pays the price,
For the fall after pride.
Lose all your senses,
Abandon all hope.
Make sense of no one,
And find knowledge from none.

Begin at the end,
End at the start.
Who'd know the winner,
Of a race down to hell?

Insolent monkeys,
Running in circles.
Nothing but flowers,
Painted in crimson.
Like birds of a feather,
Flocking in harmony.

Fall into heaven,
Soar right down to hell.
Reach down for eternity,
Lose yourself in mid-flight.

Cluttered and matted,
Find a toe in a hair-stack,
And wake up to fantasy,
Where we walk on the ceiling.

Let's make sense out of nothing;
Have nothing made sense out of.
The world is but a mess of un-ending nonsense.

No.

2008-01-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

No.

You asked of a favour,
I gave you an answer.
I thought it right over,
Never once let you down.

I asked of a favour,
You made me no answer.
You thought naught of accomplishment,
You wanted no involvement.

You spoke to me straight,
Gave me a sharp and cold answer.
You took no chances,
No way would you help;
No way would you care.

I asked of a favour,
You gave me excuses.
I pleaded with reason,
You turned the tables on me.

You gave me an answer,
I never thought you would say.
You threw down my offer,
And walked far away.

You trampled upon me,
Never once stopped to think.
Your answer was final,
I now see your drift.

I asked of a favour,
You gave me an answer.
You said with no doubt,
You said with no love.

You said it to me,
Straight into my face.
An answer so sharp,
So short and so wrong.

Perspective

2007-11-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

Perspective

Weak, stubborn,
Utterly different.
Spoilt and unreined.

Oh, that's what I am,
From their eyes.

Careless, unsure,
Mind drifting away.
Never once serious,
Never once understood.

Oh, that's what I am.
From her eyes.

Aloof and cold,
All knowing and sure.
A glare from her eyes,
Will shoot you down dead.

Oh, that's what I am.
From the eyes of the world.

Stubborn, willing,
Sure and unsure.
Different, same,
Oh who really cares?

For I am a crack;
A worthless defect,
A crack in the flawless design of the world.

Oh yes, that's what I am.
Forever trapped,
Within the eyes of the world.

Noise

2007-11-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Noise

Shut the windows,
Shut the doors.
Shaking, trembling,
I can't stop them no more.

Whispers taunting,
Glares oh so daunting.
The might of their weight,
I can't stand no more.

Quarelling, shouting,
Their voices engulf me.
I feel the world around me,
Yet I am not there.

To walk away,
To crawl and hide.
My instincts pull me,
Yet I make no move.

My head spins as the voices around me grow,
Critisizing, complaining,
When will they stop?

Incessant chatter,
Nonsensical rantings.
The need to sit down,
The desire to escape.

Shut out,
Shut down.
Just keep out the

noise.

Enough

2007-07-24T21:00:00.001+08:00

Enough

It isn't a surprise,
Where the path's led me to.
Oh woe be to me,
I've guessed just as much.

The cat's out of the bag,
No you needn't hide no more.
My troubles have met the limit,
Oh I would not be here;
At least not for long.

Ah yes, that smile,
Such sheer monstrosity.
Almighty you,
Where have I gone?

Oh how very sweet,
Those silent tears.
Stream down my face now,
Oh sweet heavens no.

My expression so cold,
So blank, so empty.
Where indeed has this worthless soul gone?

Come together!
Invade this spirit!
Broken and spent,
Where can I run?

My escape?
No there is not one.

You live in my nightmares,
Where one is to none.
My throat oh so parched,
You've killed my will to fight.

Alas! Alas!
How wistful my thoughts.
My end draws near now,
How can I evade?
Such a disaster no less.

Neverending,
No less and no more.
I've got nothing to my name,
No not anymore.

All eyes upon me,
And history repeats,
My legs bring me forth;
There is but no end.

Lost in this game,
Sinking deeper within.
Oh your silent revenge,
You've taken alright.

Quickly! Quietly!
Don't you dare make a sound.
Silently, steathily,
Then crush me in whole.

I should've known better,
Ah that similar glint.
Where is my heart?
Imprinted with scars oh so much.

My wounds torn back apart,
Raw and unprotected,
There is no escape.

Promises made,
Promises broken.
Then all at once,
It's back to square one.

Now I walk in the rain,
Down that same narrow path.
Left to bear all the pain,
The blame; the very fault.

Who can tell the difference between?
My tears, the rain,
What matter does it make?
Pitter, patter,
Fused all into one.

Lies, then silence.
Have you lost your voice now?
Cat got your tongue?
Do you mean what you've said?

Your constant reminder,
Or to be much more appropriate;
Their constant reminders.
I'm to be left alone,
Not to be touched.

I gambled my life,
I lost the one chance.
I've paid the price,
Bargained more than I'd want;
Much more than enough.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Stress

2007-05-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

Stress

Kept in a limited space,
The button is pressed,
The battle has started.
There is no escape.

Each move with precision,
Not a single mistake.
For one would cost your entire life.

Pressured to win,
You cannot lose!
The world is beheld upon your shoulders.

Caged up alive,
Is there a escape?
You look around frantically,
There is naught but a window,
Distant yet there.

Often we reach,
Yet distant it stays.
Our spirits waver with desperation,
Then give up altogether.

It is one to all,
And there's that one limit.
The rules' all written,
"Cross it and die".

What choice do one have?
We're pressured to fight.
The world's burden upon our shoulders,
We cannot avoid.

Help?
Where from can I obtain?
They all seem unworthy,
Undoubtedly witless.

This stress upon me,
Oh who can tell the pain?
Each passing second,
Each wasted minute.
It all adds up to the total diminishment of myself.

This weight upon my shoulders,
Whereby who can help me lift?
I yearn for utmost freedom,
Yet distant it still seems.

Give me the power of a thousand I ask,
Tell me the tales of those moutains of wealth.
Might they encourage this measly soul,
To plod on and complete this delirious task?

I cannot achieve much things on my own,
Yet do know I do,
That not a one can help myself.
For much as I like,
There's not one that's worth.

Stubborn as a mule,
Oh yes I am.
And I gladly accept the title of an animal that's so unlikely loved.
Yet I live on each day with much stress,
All for the sake of the little dignity one's left.

And so I march on with my withered soul,
My unforgettable pain,
My endless journey,
For a unreachable claim.

Written by: ~~Jialing~~

Scorn

2007-04-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

Scorn

I was provoked,
She gave me no choice.
I lifted my hand,
I would not turn back.

That fool of a girl,
Oh, I could not resist.
She stood right in front of me,
The path is clear now.

I had foreseen,
I knew all along.
She had provoked me,
And I reached my limit.

Begone!
For my scorn knows no boundaries.
One mere whisper of yours,
Oh the prowess it has.
Speak not to me,
For you may regret.

Your very face irks me,
I need not your help.
You are redundant,
So take your leave from the stage of my life.

Written by: ~~Jialing~~

Evil

2007-04-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

Evil

It was not to be seen,
Nothing was the same once the deal was sealed.
Promises were broken,
And all was going downhill.

I stood down below the feet of all,
Breathing, inhaling the undelightful odour.
I was told to lick them, clean them,
Praise them as though they were my own.
The torture it was, oh nobody knew,
I was given no more than a quarter of nothing,
Expected to live on mere hope and my will.

My consience bugged me,
Day after day.
"Where is your dignity you stinking fool!
Why have you resolved to measly tasks as to dust the feet of others?
Get up you fool!
Get up!"

Then the day came.
I had had enough and I was to be freed.
My anger spilled out and scalded them hot upon their very feet they used to entrust upon me.
I grew to the height of thousands above,
I could taste their fear around me.

Yes, evil it was that surged within me.
I could not stop, oh no I couldn't.
Not when I was just starting to have the time of my life.

I tormented them and forced my foot into their faces,
I fed them swill and gave them impossible tasks.
The mere pleasure that I had derived from their very pain,
Was feeding the unsurpassable devil within me.

Soon I was devoured,
From head to toe;
Nothing was spared at all.

Running away was fruitless,
For it was impossible to run from oneself.
And so I stood there,
Writhing and melting,
Till I was naught but a pile of dust.

I had learnt a lesson,
so severe indeed.
The damage caused was known too late.
I could not be saved,
For wrath was so dominant.
It took over my mind and took over my soul,
Till I was simply nothing but some bones and some meat.

One must not welcome anger,
For wrath knows no bounds.
And as for this world of utter irritance,
Evil is naught but a common thing.

Written by: ~~Jialing~~

Inferiority

2007-03-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

Inferiority

Why do I feel no sense of accomplishment?
Was it pointless after all?

She stole my confidence with a mere snigger,
She broke my utter determination.
I feel no lust for power no more,
My fighting spirit now lies dormant.
I have no will to live.

I realise my inferiority.
I was to lie below her,
Trampled on and despised.
Expected to do the unachievable,
I failed all who had hopes upon me.

The difference between us,
How can I say?
She brings the crowd with her,
Yet I am naught but a loner.

Her intelligence shames me,
I am naught but looked down upon.
The way she carries herself,
I cannot be compared.

I am nothing but a measly ant before her,
For a single finger of hers pronounces my execution.
She does not realise the impact she has upon me,
Yet depression lies on me all the same.

Inferiority; I cannot be compared.
I am naught but a idiot,
Given no space to expand.
Fear lurks in my every proposal,
I cannot breathe freely.

Oh somebody save me!
Bring back my past splendour!
Where is my success?
Where is my life?
Am I living in naught but a dream?!

Living in denial indeed,
I cannot surpass her utter intelligence.
Beneath her every breath,
I cannot match her very existence.

I am Inferior.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Betrayal

2007-03-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Betrayal
Why do I sense so much uncertainty?
Why do you tremble when I ask for the truth?
Why do you refuse to tell me why you make me feel so lost,
Why, do you neglect me so?

All I want to know is,
Am I worthy enough for your friendship.
You stood upon me,
And trampled on my heart.
My trust is broken,
How can I love?

I turned a blind eye,
I thought it would change.
I made no promises,
But you broke them somehow.

What is this expressionless look in your eyes when I am before you?
Why do you leave me clueless as to what you have done?
Am I not worthy enough of your trust?

This sense of betrayal,
How can I explain?
You made me feel so blessed,
So happy, so free.
But now the tables have turned upon me,
How can I not feel this way?

Why?
Why have you done this to me?
Have I no freedom over my desicions?
Have I no life of my own?
Is what I've created by the lies you've told,
What reality really is?

I cannot learn to trust no more,
I don't know who to trust.
I look upon your face,
I see the drastic change.
You are not the same.

Why has everything changed so fast?
In an twinkling of an eye,
I am naught but your enemy.
Have I chose none other than a wrong person?
Or have you been hiding in your mask all along?

You neglected me and in turn I got the blame.
You made me watch you enjoy yourself while you left me alone behind.
You show the world that you need everyone except the one before.
You made me feel so terrible inside,
Did you ever realise at all?

Why does it seem as though it's my fault now when the fact is you're in wrong?
Why does it feel so wrong now, when the starting has felt so right?
Have we done something wrong somehow,
Were we not meant to be?

I refused to believe the nagging doubt,
I had inside my heart.
The wild imagination inside of me,
Grew wilder with each time you did what you did.

How can I refuse now?
When the facts are all laid before me.
You've turned the tables all upon me,
You were scheming all along,
You made me feel as though you cared,
Then tore my heart up into two.

You cannot be trusted.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Alone

2007-03-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

Alone
Forgotton and left behind,
I was never the one to be loved.
Needed was I when all was lost,
Not wanted when fun was near.

Given no chance to speak,
Having no mouth to scream.
Silent I sat, with no one to confront,
Keeping still and solemnly swearing.

No one could care less.

They left me behind,
They all walked away.
They thought I'd be okay,
But oh how wrong they were.
My heart was slashed apart bit by bit,
With the pounding sounds of the footsteps they made.

Each step they took,
Drove us further apart.
My heart was about to burst.
I could take it no longer.

I was given no chance,
Shut out from the world.
Before I knew it, I was the loner again.

I had no choice,
I was forced to do it.
I've hardened my heart,
I'm not gonna listen.
I don't need no one,
I don't need no pity.
I was born a loner,
So leave it that way.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Wronged

2007-03-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

Wronged
Before me I saw the past,
Behind me people were whispering.
Beside me were people, or so I thought,
Making much noises of protests.

Many below were pointing,
Many were just staring.
Yet all I did was stand there,
Oblivious of all their screams.

I was just standing there,
Looking ahead, wondering if i should.
I readied myself and heaved a sigh,
I lifted my feet and stepped over the line.

I kept falling,
Down and down.
10th floor, 9th floor and counting.
In my mind were flashes of the past.
The times where we were happy,
The times where our memories were sweet.

5th floor, 4th floor,
I could feel the tension below.
I let the tears fall freely,
I couldn't care less now.

3rd floor, 2nd floor,
I'm reaching the end already.
I thought once more and realized,
There were still people who cared.

Inches away from the ground,
I started to regret.
The people that were close to me,
Were screaming and running away.

I had hit the floor and i felt the pain,
Blood and tears dripping off my face.
In that split second i felt guilt and anger all at once.
I had died in vain, for nothing at all,
All for the fact of being wronged.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Tears

2007-03-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Tears
You've told me lies,
Once and again.
You said to trust you,
And so i did.

I sold you my heart,
And you accepted with greed.
I told you my stories,
Yet you couldn't care less.

I dried my face,
And put on a smile to hide.
You wonder insincerely inside,
but never cared to ask.

I cried till my eyes were sore,
Day and night.
But things were not any better.

I told myself to sew my pockets,
But your words tore them apart.

Finally I realized how foolish I was,
But I knew there was no turning back.
I've done the deed and gone with it,
nothing would ever change.

Now I cry no more,
I've dried my tears and I won't go back.
I see no need to do so.
For all i feel now is but the anger,
coursing through my veins.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Fear

2007-03-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Fear
Everything seemed so very gray,
So dark and so peculiar.
Why did it seem that no one could help,
No one would ever know?

I stared out of the dust-filled window,
And looked for the one and only spark.
It had used to glow so very brightly,
But however much I had tried to look,
I did not once see it.
I waited for it day and night,
But never it once came.

Oh, when will I be oh-so free,
To be able to run wild for once?
When will the day come,
Where I can laugh,
And tell the world not to worry?

When?

I've suffered through those countless days,
Sitting in that one same corner.
Years had passed yet still no one,
Had ever came to save me.

I was trapped beneath all my fears,
Hiding, cowering, in that one lone corner.
I knew I had to do something,
I had to fight back.

But everything was useless,
Everything I did.
Everything that I thought of,
All seemed so worthless now.

`Cause I knew that I was condemned forever,
To this endless darkness ahead of me.
I could do nothing and nothing could save me,
I knew i was doomed for sure.

I sat in that one lone corner,
Waiting for my life to end.
But nothing seemed happen,
Nothing at all.

`Cause i was hiding all alone,
Hiding beneath all fears.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~

Confusion

2007-03-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

Confusion

This feeling of utmost confusion
This memory of unforgotten feelings.
It goes on with hesitation,
And unknown discomfiture.

This feeling engulfs me,
In a way of sheer irritation.
It tells me tall tales of deception,
And leads me off in confusion.

This unknown emotion,
With no confirmation,
Is known to all by confounded mystifications.

Its twists and turns,
Make it hard to learn,
And even harder to remember.

Only those who've tasted true exasperation,
Will know the difficulty,
Of this unreal irritant,
And of utmost torture.

Hatred

2007-03-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hatred

I knew this was the end,
I knew this day would come.
I knew all along,
But I never dared once speak.

This hatred lies within me...
Of you whom I cannot forget.
Oh what torture it was,
Oh what pain it caused,
Just to see you smile.

I never knew that I was this evil,
To even have this thought.
I was trapped within myself,
With no defence whatsoever.

I had to escape,
I just knew I had to.
But who in this world could help me?
I was imprisoned in my own thoughts,
And caught in my dreams,
Who could ever know?

Oh heavens above and earth below,
Save me from this unearthly torture.
I shouted.
But no matter what,
And no matter how long,
It did not seem to help.

I knew this was it,
It was but my fate,
To bring me to such a sorry state.

No one would know,
How much of sufferings,
Hatred could bring,
Until he himself had tasted it.

Written By: ~~Jialing~~